Liber could tell that Ayero was feeling some kind of reaction to his outburst which he had taken to be guilt. Grateful that she seemed to understand she had asked something unreasonable of him, Liber's condition relaxed a bit further. He was glad that she now held herself covered and respected him even when he almost snapped on her, but Liber was not out of the woods yet. He hoped she would just let sleeping dogs lie and was caught off guard when she asked if he wanted to talk about it. Liber's eyes narrowed as he stared off into the distance. He was already trying not to think about those days where torture and shackles were a common occurrence for the fanalis man and here she was asking if he wanted to talk about them. The former slave grimaced and shook his head silently before giving a painful stare downward to the floor.
Liber had left that life behind him. Yes. It was over now. It had been over ever since he wrung the neck of the hag that owned him. Liber could still remember how the hot tears ran down his face as he did the act. The woman had fed him and raised him from childhood and there was part of him that had seen her as a mother. But there was no denying that she used him like an object. That she stole his only love away. That she tortured him on the regular to ensure his obedience. It had to be done, or at least Liber told himself as much and once it was done he experienced a taste of freedom for the first time. It would be years later before he gained true freedom, but the fanalis needed that buffer period to adjust to life outside the House of Carnal Pleasures. Once his ties to the assassination organization were cut, Liber had nothing else holding him down and he had lived life for himself and those he wanted to protect. Gone were they days that he was owned by another.
But still, Ayero seemed desperate to know the reason why Liber had such an adverse reaction to her advances and part of him began to feel guilty for it. Had he hurt her self confidence? Had he somehow trampled on her own feelings? Looking back to Ayero as she asked him again, Liber gave pause as a tug of war began in his heart. Part of him wanted to tell someone. He hadn't told anyone about it in years. But the other part feared that speaking about it would bring the slave living inside of him back to the surface. After a passing silence, Liber eventually decided that he was a slave no more. That side of him was dead and gone...forever. Or at least this is what he told himself. Thinking that Ayero was too drunk to likely remember a long tale in the morning anyways, Liber finally agreed albeit reluctantly.
"If...you really want to know..." Liber stood and then took a seat next to Ayero on the bed. The man looked in Ayero's direction as he spoke, but he could not bring himself to look her in the eyes as he did. Fearful that his own eyes would reflect the weak and helpless slave he had once been. "I was born into slavery." This was not quite true, but then again Liber had no memories before being enslaved as he was just a baby when his parents were killed and he was taken by slavers. "The woman who owned me rose me like a child of her own for a time...but once I began to come of age she started training me to be a slave of the bedroom. As a young boy, I was taught the arts of how to pleasure people of all types and genders. More than half of my life was spent as a whore for hire in one of my mistress' establishments."
Liber was trying to briefly skim over the details but, once he got started, the side of him that wanted to tell someone about his tragic past won out in the tug of war. His voice became quieter and his face more pained as the minutes turned to dozens and then hours. Liber told her everything. The happy years when he was treated like a beloved son and had a simple life doing chores. Then the decline into debauchery and the torture sessions the break his spirit and convince him that he was just as weak as any normal human. How they had castrated his mind into believing that this was simply his lot in life and crushed any aspirations to dream of something more. He told her about the training he received and how he was sent to work at the House of Carnal Pleasures. About the old men who favored him when he was still quite young and the way the abused him, sometimes violently. About the disgusting women who were sometimes beautiful on the outside, but all always rotten at the core, and how they would demand his services all night long.
He also told her about the man from heliohapt, Yhamin, who Liber had fallen in love with. A fellow man-whore, Yhamin shared Liber's pains and joys. The fanalis man spoke on how his time with Yhamin made everything else bearable and for a time, he held a smile on his face as he spoke of the past. But the smile soon faded when he got to how Yhamin began teaching Liber how to fight and his true strength as a fanalis in secret. How the mistress found out about this and punished them be separating the two lovers. "After that, the only thing that kept me going was a perpetual flow of wine and drugs to dull the pain. It wasn't until a few years later that I...claimed my freedom using the strength Yhamin taught me that I had. After that, I left Reim for many years."
When Liber was done, he closed his eyes tight and held back tears to no avail. A few salty drops streamed down the slave's face. A boy again. No longer a man. Liber leaned against Ayero and silently sobbed. If she said nothing else and left him this way, he would fall asleep against her like this, ironically laying with the woman in a very different way than she had initially hoped he would.