"I can't believe it... it's...it's this strong? I almost lost control, what the hell is this thing?"
He was terrified, the self-proclaimed overlord of the new world was terrified. Lagi was terrified out of his mind and he knew he shouldn't be. She had been told by the dark hand priests that the being they were worshiping as Doxrus would be the reflection of its truth might once he mastered the DMV, which ordinarily was not something special. However, what was special was the fact that the strange feeling that Lagi received once he activated it was the strange feeling he had all over his body. He felt like he was the alienated one, he felt like he was the visitor of this body that he was moving about in, with the true owner being someone else. Or worse of all, he felt himself becoming one with something else, was it Doxrus? Was it's consciousness still existing within the weapon?
"I need to keep calm, I can't lose control like that again. It really has been a while since I held on to this much power. The power of those chosen to rule, the power of a King candidate. All my life, even before I received this, I saw myself as worthy. Am I having doubts now? Even coming this far? I know who I am!! I......."
He wasn't terrified because of the strength though; He was terrified because she didn't want the desires of bliss, the happiness that had lasted for in the heart of the people who were mutated by a forceful change to end. They might see themselves as lesser creatures than man without the ability to cope, they might seem themselves as freaks of nature without a will of living. Lagi didn't want that for them, his acts reflected a belief. With everything he's done, even if it was the only selfless act that he managed with the residents of his intended country, he wanted to give them a ruler that loved them. Why?
"Because I desired such a place of my own. A place where I was loved, an alternate reality where the people appreciated what I've done and my rightful place on the throne was never questioned. We are no longer human, but the path that we take can be even greater than theirs. This conflict of humanity, is this the reason why that I hesitate? Do the powers of my vessel notice that?"
He knew the answer to that though, for once. As much as he disliked it, as much as he wanted more time to be around his new subjects, to grow, to learn, it was a poor substitute for fantasizing about it with the conflicted thoughts of his mind to actually protect what he fought so hard for. How would he ever achieve his dream if he never became stronger? He was approaching his limits, and his DMV was the path to surpassing his limits, even if temporarily. Lagi was facing the literal ceiling of his power. It would be impossible to break through it without mastering this weapon; he could never fulfill his dream that way.
"I need this, I truly need this. Whatever you can offer me as your chosen one, whatever you can spare. I need this power to create a home for the chosen people of solomon."
This hazardous desert, it was vast, more massive than anything else in area. Tips of dead trees, dunes of sand, and the moon. The twilight moon that Lagi liked most of all; which was to be expected when it gave the strangers feeling of light and night without the sun. It took some time getting used to, much to be expected. It cast a sorrowful look down upon the sands of Heliohapt's former borders, a sorrowful look that some creatures needed to see. Some needed to be reminded that the new future of Tartarus will rise from the ashes of Heliohapt, the world had to decide whether to stand in non-aggression, to join hands, or treat them as an enemy.
With more training, the mastery of his weapon equip had grown into something more than what he had been that first day he received it. He was like an inseparable part of Doxrus now; if he was removed, the whole of him was removed. It might be seen as sappy by some, as others just as infatuation, but to him, it was the plain, blunt truth.
"Sabin, my son...... Octavia....my daughter. Are you living good lives?"
He wondered; what was he thinking right now? Was he thinking about the rumors of his death? What if he starts to hear that Lagi "rose from the dead" to rule the opposite side of the continent. Would he come for him? Was it better to be someone else so that Sabin and Octavia can continue the rest of their lives in peaceful respite? "............" Lagi stared into the sky for a moment, deciphering what he once said about the things he was going to do. It all seemed alien to him, the end of worship towards a new dream and a new beginning. He was surely picking up the pieces and making it into something else. What was the right decision then? To watch the city burn and create more of those who wouldn't be accepted by anyone else? No, he brought it upon himself to take on this responsibility, no matter how much pain and sorrow the process would bring him. He was unburdened by his humanity, which meant that he was no longer judged by the standards of humanity. He can now be whatever he wanted. Or in this case, whatever he thought that he deserved to be. Reclaiming a throne, ruling once more. Once he was in the light, where someone put him. Then he was in the shadows, ruling over crime. What is the meaning of this third path of power?
"................."
Raising the hand of his Djinn's sealed state, Lagi would call out the name of the being as he focused on the ring.
"Radiate, Doxrus!"
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