Fighting against anger [Plot/Training]

Merrze was on a mountainous area surrounded by boulders and the likes. She was sitting on top of one of the large boulders meditating trying to focus her mind and confront her anger. She felt as if it was time that she let out some built up anger and try to control it much better. She was going to put it on the ropes to make it where she could have as much control of the monstrosity inside her. The warrior knew this would be good for her, she wouldn't be able to get rid of her anger permanently at least not yet so she was in a way strength the bonds that stopped it from releasing from her brain.

She stared to peer in to the depths of her mind getting rid of all outside distractions so that nothing would break her concentration.
The fanalis was focusing on her past and such, the tings that brought forth her anger, she was going to fight back against her urges of anger that were in her mind, she had to find to bind them and try and reason with herself, if she could do that then it was the best possible way to control her anger, at least in the girl's opinion.

As her concentrated increased she was put in a dream like sate where all she could see was a dark area, it was like an area void of light but the area started to illuminate with recollections of her past, she could see them. She saw more than anything the most frustrating moments of her life, the ones that upset and affected her more than any other moments. Remembering them filled her with a plethora of emotions, there were three main moments that shone brighter than any other moments, the ones that were definitely the most scarring.

The first moment was when the warriors life had been changed the most, the moment when her mother had died of sickness. She had relived it many times before now and it was still very emotional for the redhead but she was mainly over it. She could look back on it without crying now but it had a big impact on her life, she was so frustrated that the world had taken the only important thing in her life at that time. There was nothing that could be done about it but at the time she felt nothing more than sadness and anger towards the world.

The next was when the young girl was imprisoned by slave traders, it was the most terrifying moment of Merrze's life even. It had made her feel so powerless and that her life could be ruined by people who where stronger and did what they wanted to the weak, it had made her feel so weak and as if she could do nothing to control her own life. She was angered by the thoughts of the terrible people that did things like that as she was treated less then dirt in that time period.

The most recent had changed her personality and made her become what she was like now, it was also the most recent and that was the entire rebellion against Kou. She had learned her own mortality in that time because of losing er leg and seeing so many comrades die in the battles. It was what made her decided to get rid of the violent nature that was common in the fanalis race. Merrze as taught how to control herself and that she had to be cautious and patience in battle she had things to fight for so she could come back home to them. It made her frustrated of how foolish she was at time but tried to put it behind her.

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Merrze sat there focusing on her memories and analyzed them as the main three moments made her think. She had to stop the anger that they had caused her. They were all important since they made the fanalis who she was to this today, they were bad but she was glad that they happened nonetheless and couldn't hate them, even if the negative emotions were still there. She noticed that even though they appeared as images all of the bad memories of her past start to collect together and start forming something. It was strange how they were all pooling together in her mind which she she thought was strange.

They started getting a strange humanoid shape, it seemed as if it was made from magoi or something weird since it didn't seem to be made from anything physical or real. She could feel negativity coming from it although she had no idea what even was, she felt it drawing the anger from her and it must have been. She felt rage building up at the injustices of the world, she tried to stop herself from getting angry, she put her hands on her chest trying to get rid of the anger when a floating red orb flew out of her chest and into the humanoid shape.

It started to give the shape a more definite look, it gained a feminine shape and started to grow flesh and skin. It was a disgusting sight to the redhead as she watched in disgust as it started to gain the appearance of a human. It was a somewhat odd as it started to look familiar and she realized why. The strange creature started to look like Merrze but it had animalistic features and such, it was a manifestation of all her anger and given form. She knew it was all in her mind but it was one of the strangest things she had ever seen. She noticed how strange it was, it got down on all fours and looked at the Fanalis with killer intent.

The clone charged at the redhead vigorously as it was on it's way to kill her, it showed nothing but pure rage and madness. It leaped at her like a wild animal, it surprised Merrze as it landed on her. It drooled as it was ready to bite in her flesh showing mangled sharp teeth that seemed they could even bite through metal, and the doppelgangers breath smelled like it had ate a decaying body, she could tell her imagination was very strong. It snarled so loud and powerful that it shook Merrze a little.

She threw it off her and did a backflip trying to get away from the wild clone. She was going to have fight this monstrosity and defeat it. She would have to face all of her anger and such so that she could control and overcome it so that she cold learn to let go f the demons of her past. She had gotten better and accepting things but this was a good chance to get rid of any other doubts that she had left in her mind. This may have been a fake fight but to her this was one of the most important fights in her life.

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The creature stared her down circling like a animal about to pounce on it's prey. Merrze was entranced by it's strange appearance since it was like an animalistic version of herself. Since it was a manifestation of all of her anger, frustration and pain she had to wipe it out so she could move on. She clenched her fist as she was prepared or the monster to strike, they were both very strong since they were both Merrze and would be able to do enough damage to take one another out in a couple of blows it was more of a matter of who was faster and could land the most strikes.

The clone of the warrior leaped and was blurred like a shadow as it moved at her. As it flew over her about to strike Merrze grabbed it by it's leg and threw it away from her. The clone snarled loudly and violently at Merrze as it leaped at her again and pinned her down to the ground. It stared into he eyes with intense hatred as if it didn't want this new Merrze to exist. It dug it's claws into her thighs making Merrze let out an intense loud pain filled scream. It tried to tear off her flesh but she brought her knee up into it's lower chest knocking it away from her.

She ran away from it when started chasing after her with blood dripping from it's claws. Her leg hurt so she thought it would have been to try and end this with one blow. She got as far as she could from it and was prepared to strike as the monster approached the wounded redhead got ready and focused herself, this was her mind and she had the control, she wold take it out with a single shot at this point. It leaped at her when she was prepared. She created a spear with her mind and pierced the chest of the monster.

Merrze slightly smirked that she had one as she saw the body slide down the spear. She had defeated her anger but she thought about it for a second. This was apart of her past, even if she killed the emotions they brought they still shaped her, she had to accept her past and not run from it. What happened had happened and she couldn't change that no matter what, she just had to let it be apart of her. She hugged the body and it went back inside her becoming one with her again.

"I will accept you and all of your anger, sure you might be me but we can coincide with one another. I realized it's okay to have these emotions as long as I don't let them control me. The angry me and the calm will be one doing our best to protect the things we care about."

She came back to her senses smiling and more focused than ever. The girl hopped down from the builder and drew her sword. To show her knew focus and unity with herself she manipulated her magoi around her sword and cut the boulder in half with a single strike. She knew this meditation was good for her focus. She would head home now to go make her and Ku some dinner. She's glad the inn lady, who was her good friend would take care of Ku when she was gone. Good thing Merrze made sure to spend all the time she could with Ku.

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