Though Vavatine didn’t stir, there were a couple of times she lightly awoke and felt the presence of Jahan. His presence comforted the woman into more slumber both times until the time she awoke for good. Vavatine stirred with a soft moan and rubbed the sleep from her eyes. She didn’t want to get up; she just wanted to lay there and continue the dream she was having and just relish the memories that were given to her. However, her body immediately jolted upright in a sitting position.
The sun was blinding at first, but she didn’t care about the light. Her blue eyes scanned the area, looking for Jahanghir. For a brief moment in her groggy state, there was a dreaded fear that last night was just a dream she concocted and the man had departed. There was an ache building up in her chest, a knot in her throat. Yet as the grogginess began to dissipate, Vavatine became more aware of the marks left behind by Jahanghir, the soft fabric against her skin, and the sunlight glinting off some objects next to her. Relief washed away the fear knowing that last night was real. The warrior was touched to notice that Jahanghir left his blanket but even more so about the earrings and necklace. The items were beyond her reach as a woman not born to nobility or royalty: a mulberry silk blanket, golden earrings, and golden necklace.
Vavatine didn’t know what to do. Such gifts were unnecessary, and if she had been awake when Jahanghir left, she would have tried to decline them. The memories of the night they shared and the marks that painted her body were more than enough to remember him by. If there was one thing she would have wanted it would be to see him face one last time. With him gone, that wish would go unanswered… Vavatine picked up the earrings and necklace. Most would probably sell them for money, but Vavatine had no need for money and these were a special gift, a gift she happily received even though reluctant. She’d never forgive herself if she were to be selfish, and since she couldn’t see Jahanghir’s face, they were all that were left of the man she made love to (or so she thought at the time for little did she know that he had given her something more precious than gold or silk growing inside her soon).
The warrior carefully folded the blanket and put on the necklace and earrings. After she carefully laid the blanket down, she got dressed, wincing every now and then due to the marks on her skin but the pain made her happy. Of all the men, she chose him to give her fruit. It was a decision she didn’t regret, even now. He was a kind man, an honest man, a sincere man.
She picked up the folded fabric and clutched it against her chest tightly. Her blue eyes looked around slowly and remembered the time spent with Jahanghir with a smile. Vavatine brought the blanket to her nose and sniffed it. His scent still lingered. Thank you so much… I wish I could tell you in person.... Thank you, my king, for letting me feel like a princess… I’ll never forget you.
For a few moments, she stood there with her eyes closed, thanking fate for allowing her to meet Jahanghir until she could stay no longer. Vavatine opened her eyes and gazed out at the graveyard yet never seeing the it either. She exhaled slowly and placed the mask over her face before turning to continue her life, leaving behind a place that held a beloved evening.
*months later*
The imuchakk warrior returned to the ruins where she had met a certain fanalis king quite some time ago. The time passed felt like an eternity, but she often came back to reminisce. The scene of the mass graveyard had not changed nor the ruins in which she stood. Vavatine, on ther other hand, had changed considerably. The blue uniform from back then had been replaced with looser clothing, her hair was longer, the golden necklace and earrings were where she placed them, and there was a new sense of maturity about her. None of these were the most noticeable of changes though. A month or two after the fated and beautiful night with Jahanghir, the warrior had noticed her body was changing. She realized Jahanghir had given her more than a blanket and two articles of jewelry. He had blessed her with life: their child was growing inside her.
When Vavatine found out, she was terrified. After all, she never planned on having children. She didn’t know what to do. The warrior had immediately gone to the ruins where she met Jahanghir, foolishly hoping he’d be there while knowing her actions were futile. There was nowhere else she could think of going, and eventually it became a habit. First once a week but soon daily. Everyday Vavatine came, hoping she would see Jahanghir and tell him the news, but of course he wouldn’t be there. Still, she came and talked about her day as if he were there, and it made her feel content. She talked about her friend, Lena, a human that she lived with while in Reim, and about her daily activities and thoughts. It felt like he was listening thanks to the special connection they shared, though she felt silly to think that way.
Vavatine gazed at the horizon thoughtfully. She stood there in silence for a moment, lost in her thoughts and memories before she began to speak. “Lena’s been hovering me all day. Though it’s no different than how she’s been acting recently. I know she’s concerned about me and the baby, but no matter how many times I assure her we’re fine, she just won’t listen. I can’t go out much because she’s so paranoid that I’ll be mugged or an accident will happen. I couldn’t even go to the market a block away to get some pie.” Vavatine shook her head with a smile. “She’s a handful.. I often wonder if you’d be like that if you were here, but I know you’re a wandering king. You have your own goals… Your own life… You’re probably busy right now with overcoming more obstacles or training.”
The warrior looked down at the ground, her eyes suddenly glistening with tears. “I wish you didn’t leave,” she whispered. There were so many times she wanted to rewind time and make herself wake up, to convince him to stay, but she knew that it would have never happened. They were strangers that night, only just starting to get to know each other. They had no relationship before they made love, and thus didn’t have to be committed to each other. She even figured that she wasn’t the first girl he slept with, nor would she be the last. He was so handsome that every girl probably fell for him. Just because she was special that one night didn’t mean she had some claim on him, nor did he have a claim on her. They owed nothing to each other. Nevertheless, the impossible wish was still there because she knew there was something between them. If there wasn’t he wouldn’t have given her the blanket or jewelry.
Vavatine felt the baby kick and wiped away her tears. “This is the last time I’ll probably be able to come here.” Vavatine smiled to herself as she cradled her belly and rubbed it. “Our child will be born soon,” she said, “so I’ll be very busy trying to take care of him. I’ve also decided to join the Unity Corps here in Reim so that I can protect our little one. I wouldn’t worry though. When I’m doing Unity Corps business, Lena will watch over our baby, but between all that, I won’t have any free time on my hands,” she said with a light giggle. Silence hung in the air while Vavatine bit her lip and continued in a light-hearted tone. “Of course, I don’t know if it’s a he yet, but I just have this feeling… It’s really hard to explain. I’ve been thinking of names, but nothing has come to mind yet.”
Looking up at the sky, she noticed the sun was getting lower. “I’d stay longer, but Lena is probably already worried sick… I feel like a child with this curfew she put on me.” She placed her hands on her hips and looked stern. “‘ Be back before twilight! If you’re out then say goodbye to dessert!’” Vavatine exclaimed sternly, trying to act an like her friend Lena. It was enough to make her burst out laughing. “I hope you are well, my king. I’ll talk with you again as soon as I’m able.”
The woman stood there for a moment and listened to the silence. Even then, she couldn’t bear to leave but knew that she had to. The baby inside her moved. “Don’t you worry. Everything will be fine… Let’s go home...”
The name was simple, and Shajahan Nikator had a nice ring to it and had a part of Jahanghir’s name. She headed home, her hands cradling her stomach, still wishing Jahanghir could be there to at least see his son but never losing hope that he might.
In a few days, Vavatine gave birth to Shajahan Nikator inside Lena’s home. The new mother would be able to spend a few months with her son before going to Heliohapt for an important Unity Corps mission. She left her son in the care of Lena, along with the mulberry silk blanket, the necklace, and the earrings. The warrior never planned on being gone for long, but sadly fate had other plans. Her mission in Heliohapt would not go smoothly and all communication would cease, leaving Lena, a worried friend, to take care of the baby.
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